I Miss You Everyday my Little Brother



You Are so Beautiful Nina

Is is Really Too Littel Too Late?

Well, this is a song by The Streets "Its Too Late" but i feel like....."Is it really too little too late?". ....Maybe realisticly yes....but...
ah....why why why again! but....Why Not!!!........

Give Me Your Love



I bought a Record today. "Give Me Your Love" by Carl Cox.

I so wanted this record for years and finally i got it today.
Carl Cox is full Techno DJ but this track is Vocal House and its just a great track!. Not many Techno DJs can make track like this. I Love this Track!!!

Darkness, Sadness and Happiness

It is sounds very Dark and Sad.....Yes it is.....

Everything going back to last year to explain this topic....around Oct, Nov or something, somehow i started getting into Dark Music which i never liked it before. There was not much reason but somehow i liked it....

and since last couple of month, unless i try on purpose, music i play are always Dark but wait a minute. There is a "Beauty of Darkness" or may be i should say....."Beauty in the Darkness". Either way there is something beautiful in Dark Music. What are they??.........I say.....'Something to Rely on". Realisticly, when i am sad....there is no point listening and playing Happy Music because....it doesnt help my feeling. However, When i am sad and play Dark music.....I feel like " Man....This is just beautiful." and somehow, it doesnt make me anymore sad or darker than what i am now.....

WHen i started Music 7 years ago. I so wish to play with some "Theme". Spacey, Triblal. Funky, Hard. Dark or whatever but i didnt have enough skill and knowledge to do that......but after 7 years, i am able to do that now days.....When i do recording now....i can set a theme before i start and i can follow and go with that theme which i am very happy with it. A few weeks ago. i was like "Its Summer, Its Hot so....I want to Play something Tribal, Driving and Funky" and it ended up alright.

I am trying to make an another cd now and Yes, my theme are "Darkness, Sadness and Happiness"

I was thinking to put "Lonleyness" but.....thats a bit too much. Something i wish after Darkness and Sadness is "Hapiness" so thats why "Happiness"

I was trying to find some photo but couldnt find a good one but....here is a one. Its just an exapmle of Darkness....

Art of Djing and Music Part2


Um.....i feel like i am back to my ususal blog now.....Dont really worry about my life story unless it is relate with music or something.

Now, Yesterday, i wrote about Good Music and Bad Music. Also a bit about Djing so keep continue about DJing.....

Compear with 7 years ago, so many thing about "DJ" has changed. I am talking about Technology in here. It used to be only with records but now days, its getting less and less djs who plays vinyls. Most popular one now days is using CDJ. Some People still saying that "Playing Records are the best".......I understand and agree with that however.....U cant hear much difference between using Vnyls or Cds now days....thats how much CDJ improved last couple of years. CDJ can do more things than playing vinyls, for example, Direct Loop and stuffs like that which u cant do with Turntables. Only the thing is that It is still expensive!! Pionner CDJ 1000 is more expensive than buying a Mixer. Crazy!!!

Using Laptop and softwear can do more things than playing CDJ. You NO Longer need to Do Beat Mixing with them. and can do pretty much everything u want to do. Mix this tracks this part and that track.....make a Loop from this track and mix with this track...or pretty much whatever....

However.....a bit of problem i found with DJs using those softwears is that......I cant feel something like....."Emotions of DJ"
It is hard to explain but....with using computer.....everything is just perfect. Somehow, i feel like there is no Soul with that. Now, Live Sets are a bit different thing so not going to mention about that.

I saw fiar a few djs who are using softwears and some of them are really good but also to some dj i feel like...."....i like u dj with VInyls and Cds better."

Perfect Exaple is here.

Richi Hawtin. I love his style now. Using only laptops and do really crazy stuffs. Make a music from banch of different sounds from different tracks. I dont feel "Emotions" from his djing but i felt "Perfection" Thats an Art.

On The Other hand.....I difnt like to see Carl Cox using laptop. When i saw him 4 years ago.....he was only using vinyls and CDjs and I felt his Love and Passion about Music but when i saw him this time.....Thats Good Rockin Music but i didnt feel any of his Soul which i disappinted. For me Carl Cox was always "Soul Love and Passion" but saw him using laptop.......couldnt feel Soul. Thats just a Dance Music for me.

I mean....Everyone has a different view with this so there is no good or bad and Technologies are still improving and changing right now so cant imagine what we gonna see in a few years time but i can gurantee that there will be no more DJs who only plays vinyls thats for sure....

Art of Djing

Now, time is going really fast and in couple of month, i have been playing Music and Djing for 7 Years Now. Jesus...Thats really long long time. Even, if i think about it now, last 7 years, music was always with me and around me. Yeah, I achieved what i said to my self 7 years ago in 4,5 years and stop playing at parties now days....When i stoped playing at clubs and parties, i thought...."Well, probably, thats it....I dont think i will buy records anymore....".....However, since i stop playing at clubs, i actually start finding about music from totally different point view.

Well, when i start playing music, i used to buy some shit records...because i didnt know whats good and bad....so just buying anything....at one point i was buying something i dont really like too. However, now days Quantity of buying Record is less but Quality of music is higher than used to be.

Now, i always say this to anyone but...."Music i like and i dont like and Good Music and Bad Music are totally different Issue."
I have some bad music in my Itune...but i like them......on the other hand. i have some music which i dont like but they are good music. Maybe this isnt something everybody understand but i beleive in that way. My Favourite Music....and Good and Bad Music are different things.....

Now days, I confidentially say to evryone that "I listen Good Music". Now so What A Fuck is Good Music and Bad Music?

Bad Music is very simple. You get sick of it very easy and will not listen again next year or even month because they are just made for Making a Millions and Millions of Money. They are not designed for Long Term Use , they only have short time life.
However, Its No.1 on Chart...WHY??. because they are designed to be No.1, Think about how much Money they spend for Adv and Promotion. Ig they spend Billions of MOney and not getting No.1, then there are no point. Bad Music is always pretty simple....For Example if its a song.....Lyrics are always similar. "I Love You" "I miss You" something like that so it is very easy for everybody to understand which is CRAP!! becaue then anyone who have good looking can do that. Really, even if u have shit Voice.......There are enough Technology to fix that.

Good Music. Good Music have a very long life. People will listen for years and years because they are good music. Simple!. Good Music is pretty much made by Artists who are really Passionate about what they are doing and dont really care about Selling, They Just Doing what they Love and....as a Result, People Love it, Now, its good point here. "Bad Nusic=Money" "Good Music=Love"

Now, Lets move on about "Djing"

Now days, we can find a dj in pretty much in everywhere. A Bar, Club, Party or Even at some Events. Even when i start music 7 years ago....there wasnt many djs like now. Its pretty hard to find to people who DJ around me but now, I beleive i was the only DJ in my high School. it is changed now. There are so many DJs everywhere. However, Quality of DJs are gone down....because people doesnt really care about music and they just play some commercial shits which anyone can do and act like Rock Star behind the Decks. Thats why i stop go to clubs and parties. Just Same Shits Defferent Place thats all.....DJs just playing Safely and never take a risk. One Of "Art of Djing" is here. When DJs take risk and when it success.........It will make and bring a "VIbe" to dancefloor. When DJ Rock really hard and Crowd Rock as much as DJ....there is an Art in place. It is really hard t o explain but all i can say is "Art in whole club". Even i actually havent seen that many times.

Djing is very different with playing some instruments because djs play soeone-elses music but When and How they play are very important. It can kill whole vibe if you drop a wrong track in wrong situaition.

Now....i am getting a bit confuse with my Writting.....

It is funny that i am better now than when i was playing around at clubs and parties a few years ago. Deffnatly! i though i will never get any better than when i was playing around when i stop playing but its not! I really suprised my-self with this. Since i stop playing at parties, and when i go for vinyl shopping now, i dont think about "Which track will be good on Dance Floor." because now, i dont need to make people "Dance Dance"....just buying something i fall in Love with. Really Tell you the Truth....make people just dance is very very easy. Just Play Some Dance Music. What i love now is "Electronic Music" Not Dance Music. I am not a big fun of "Dance Music" anymore.....Most of "Dance Music" these days are so shit!!!

Anyway.....i think its enough for now i guess...start having problems with Writting.....

Just at last.

Music is not One Way thing.
Music is Two Way.
You Like and Love Music....Thats Fine
However at same time,
You Allow Music to Love You too. :)

I have got a lot of things to write but i dont know where to start and how much i should write...


Um....Its been pretty messy, bitter and dark last a few days....on the other hand its been, clear, sweet and bright too.

Um.....Maybe thats all i want to write today....because i cant up photos in here now....because i dont have my lap top.....

Maybe at least i should do My Top 10 Music Chart

No.1 Slat by Kilowatts and Vanek
I puted lyrics of this song at least 3 times so...no need to mention anything. Just a Great Song with Great Sounds and Great Vocal.

No.2 Its Too Late by The Streets
I love this song sice i found it while ago.....but recently i found a video on youtube and its exactly like how i feel......"Too Little Too Late"

No.3 Sun is Shine Funkstar De Luxe Remix by Bob Marley Listen
I found this video last month and been listening over and over. Normally, when people does remix of very popular track or song, it kills Original but this remix is really good because good parts of original song is still alive and its sounds different.

No.4 Conviction by Kilowatts

No.5 Final Distance by Hikaru Utada. Listen
This is pretty old song by now....released around 2001 or something. It is really Dark and Sad Song.....but it is beautiful song too. Hikaru Utada is one of only a few Japanese Pop Artisit i like. This Video is really cool too
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No.6 "Dareka no Negai ga Kanaukoro by Hikaru Utada. ListenThi is an another song by Utada. Again its pretty sad song. I like how Lyrics goes....um...i have to translate now.
"When Someones wish is comming true, Someone is Crying" "Everyones wish doesnt come at same time" Something like that....BTW this video is nothing to do with this song. but at least u can listen.....

No.7 Sunriser by Ken Ishii

No.8 Time Flys by Ken Ishii
They are both from His New Album "Sunriser"

No.9 Out of Space by Prodigy Listen
I love this Live Version....Its good quality too. I like when everyone sings together even after the song finish.

No.10 Tribal Funk by Bob Seiji.
Sorry its just my mix. I realised that i havent play Hard Techno for while so one day i was like...."I gonna play some Tribal Shits: so i did and....it came up alright. Straight Dance Music.

I will never be able to become a Jedi!!!


now if u are a not star wars fan if might dont understand.....but...I am deffnatly Dark Side.

Bring Some Dark Music On!!! Feel like want to be really dark for while........I am stupid enough.

Now Its not a Dark Music but....a song is keep going in my Head.

"Its Too Late" by The Streets

She said meet me at the gates at 8
Leave now don't be late
She said one day she'd walk away cos I was always late
Thought things were ok
Didnt care though anyway
Say sorry babe, I had to meet a mate, tempting fate
We first met through a shared view, she loved me and I did too
It's now 7:50 getting, ready better be nifty
Do my hair quickly, step out it's cloudy
Mate bells me to borrow money, I got two Henry's and a dealer to pay
Call upon geezers to rid these green trees of my reeking jeans
Got a you think I care air outglaring geezers stares
I'm here and I'm there
Couldn't see past the end of my beer
What was getting near, all the silence after the cheers


I didnt know that it was over
'Til it was too late
But if I ever needed you
Would you be there

She said meet me at the gates
Don't be late, but pretty soon the day came for change
And I was glad she never walked away
So I'm choosing what to wear, doing my hair with an hour to spare
When my life went pear, she'd been there with a thick stare
Big wheel climed to the top, geezer scares bounced off
Standing at the top of this huge mountain, smiling and shouting
Spring flowers sprouting, not one inch of doubt in my mind as I reached the gates
Came round the corner at a rate
Risked her love but I'm gonna set things straight
Never again am I gonna be late
Never again am I gonna be late
Never again am I gonna be late

[Chorus]

I said meet me at the gates
Leave now don't be late
I waited for a while listening to her voicemail, mind set sail
Then the facts turned me pale, wind rain and hail
My fears unveiled, for my fair female
She'd walked away, too little too late
I step up the pace, walk past the gates, rain runs over my face
Spirit falls from grace
I purchase a hazy escape at the alcohol place in the chase
Sat down I got a fat frown
Weaping and drowning my senses
For this love game's expensive
I walk in a trance
Got a wounded soldier stance
The everyday geezers stares throw me off balance
Now nothing holds significance
And nothing holds relavance
'Cause the only thing I can see is her elegance


Shame i cant listen this song now...cos i dont have my laptop. I so want to listen this song....

Man....Exactly like lyrics says...."Didnt know it was all over till It Was too Late"

I know, this is 3rd time....but i need to this again.....ok...i put samples on this time...

Listen!!


Salt
By KiloWatts & Vanek

Salt on your skin
Then you sigh
As you’re shivering, quivering
Ready to sin
And you cry
So electrical, sensual

Lost in your eyes
Taste mortality
It’s infusing me
The poison inside
Riding an acid stream
In my lucid dream

Never thought that this would be killing me, ever so easily
Never thought that I would be bleeding emotions I needed to feel
Just like a flaring sun in oblivion
And I’m giving in to my adrenalin

Touch me and then
You just move
Like a demon enticing me
On me again
You’re so smooth
As you’re draining my energy

Crawling, Lying, Falling, I’m Dying
I’m trying to find a way out of this maze

Never thought that this would be killing me, ever so easily
Never thought that I would be bleeding emotions I needed to feel
Just like a flaring sun in oblivion, so free
And I’m giving in to my adrenalin

Crawling, Lying, Falling, I’m dying
Crawling, Lying, Falling, I’m dying

Salt on my skin
And it seems
That I’m losing my mind to you
Lost from within
And I scream
But there’s no one I’m screaming to
No there’s no one I’m screaming to
There is no one I’m screaming to

What A Great Song. Last 2month or so.....i have been listening this song more than anyother songs and tracks.....An Anthem.

BTW....Happy Valentain Day for Everybody.....Love and Peace!!! From Last Samurai Bob Seiji!!! hehehe

I Wasted a Chance by My Stupid Miss Understood

There was a something (well...maybe i should say something but...) i could get which i really wanted. However, same kind of storied happend in the past and at that time it all didnt work it out so i thought this time is gonna be the same so i just letted it go......and i thought "its just gonna be the same anyway" but this time was different.......i never realised and found it untill the last minute which was just too late.

At the end of the story, all i have got is Regret. all i can say to myself are...."why didnt i try?" " why was i so stupid?"

What a Fuck!!!!


I have mentioned that i lost my mobile a week ago but now........I am Empty!!!!

My Turtable curtridge is dead so cant play Records! which will cost around $100-200 to buy a new one!!!! Oh no......i was just finding some new set lists to play.........now its gone untill i buy new curtridge. If only Niddle gone, i only need to buy new niddle which isnt that expensive.....However....buy curtridge is a lot more expensive!

Now, here is an another one......

My Laptop Fucked!!!
I thought there is something wrong from this morning but i was still manage to use it but....even Oliver told me its a bit wired and we tried to fix it.....but now its dead........cant turn on either. I can use my warrenty so its ok but still....no email, no nothing.......at least I can use Olivers computer while he is away but its not my computer.......it makes a bit difference.....

So Yeah,......i feel absolutely empty now. No one can contac me beside via this blog. Luck that I start drawing so there is still something to do....but fuck.......Mobile, Turntable, Laptop. all 3 came together......NOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!

I was looking at Hannas my space page and when i opened window.......straight away something hit my ears!

The Postal Service!!!



I really suprised that Hanna listen those kind of electronic music. Well, The Postal Service is more like Electro Pop music but They are fully Electronic Music. Especially, their Bass Lines are very very Fat and Dope Which i really like. Vocals are always great but i really like these guys Bass Line more than Vocals.

I always love it when someone listens same kind with me. I thought Hanna is totally not Electronic Music Person.

I Lost my Mobile


I lost my phone a a few days ago.......but.....i kind of like this because i dont need to talk with some people who i dont want to talk.....well, thats mainly like phone calls from my Work or some bills i have to pay. Well,i dont get that many phone calls copear with other people ....because normally all of my friends are using internet so i just chat with them on online. Well, i am getting a few complains from my friends that they cant contact with me already.......but....send me a e-mail instead. i will always check e-mails and i am on online all the time when i am at home anyway.

Many people say "I cant live without my mobile phone"....but i can...However on the other hand...i cant live with out computer now thats for sure. Music, Blog, Internet, E-mail etc.....i need them more than mobile phone thats for sure.....

My plan was that use my old mobile phone which i have been using for 4 years now till i get I PHONE However....now i have to buy a new phone. Noooooooo I so dont want to..........

We had a Franks Farewell party.

Now, i have mentioned that "i am not gonna write my life story on this blog" but i do a little bit now days. There are not much reasons but.....i am always trying do my best not just writting my life story...i always trying to make some conection with my life story and something-else. Good Example was I puted Lyrics of Kilowatts. Now Never Mind...

I met Frank since the day i start working at la camera. First impression of him wasnt really good because i was always really friendly because i was new but he wasnt friendly to me at all. "Hey How are u Frank?!" he was like "Fine". Pretty much everyday i work, he was working too so from some stage, we start talking many things. He is older than me so he has more experience with many things and knows a lot more things than me so everytime when we talk, and if i had some problems with anything, he was always giving me good advice. He is a really cool guy indeed.

Now, when i heard Frank is leaving, it made me think about how lucky i am because now i have a Permanet Resident so i can stay here as much as i want, i can go anywhere without worrying about Visa. Thats becoming normal for me now days. "P.R? thats just a piece of paper." However, i realised that there are so many people who really want to live in Aus but they cant...because of school and subject they did etc. I was almost forgot about that till i hear that Frank is going back.

Well, Frank told me that he has a plan to coming back so hopefully he is coming back.

Good Luck and All the Best untill i see you Again Brother!!!

Nothing much new.

However 2 things i would like to write.

One.

I want Peaceful dream please!!!

Last a few days, i had seen so intense and scearly dreams.
The other night, i was at war. Me and my friends and people who i know were living in some place where its not developed like Aus or Jap etc.....and we were having a bbq and playing with guns and getting ready for war.....but all the sudden, US throw bombs from sky so we were running around and trying to escape but there were no where to escape. somehow i managed to get into a small dark room....then i woke up.

Yesterday's dream.
Cant remebe but i am sure that i was almost get killed so i woke up. Man....too much intense dreams. I just want Peaceful and beautiful dreams......

Training and Teaching

Since i start working at my current work place. I have been training fair a few people on Pans by now. Recently, i have been teaching and training 2 people and i actually realised i am getting better with teaching and training people on Pans. Now, for those 2 people i am teaching now, i am using totally different way of teaching and training methods. For one guy, i am very strict and tough because that guy is a bit lazy and i cant see much of his consentraition and interests. However, for a other guy, i am have been more nice and friendly because i can see he is willing to learn and working hard.
In past when i just started to teach somebody, i was just saying whatever i know and didnt know what to teach and how but now, after a bit of experience, i know how to teach than before. I kind of like doing this now.
My Head Chef already knows that i am not doing this job for forever and dont want to be like "CHEF CHEF" so that he doesnt give me anymore further responsible jobs than now just in case if i fuck up....but training somebody is pretty responsible job for me which i actually like because at the end of the day, when trainee become good and he can work by himself, i am very happy and proud of that trainee and trainee is showing...well not actually i can see...but respect for my training.
when i teached a guy 6 month ago and now he is good and he is in charge sometimes.....but.....he doesnt give a shit about who teached him and all........i dont like that because simply, i still appriciate with Quan and a few other chefs who teached and trained me all the time.