「人生楽ありゃ、苦もあるさ」

　　そんな事を感じてる日々このごろ。
　　仕事は全く持って順調だと思う。木曜日はちょっと大変だった。初めて全部一人でやらされたから。終わってからちょこっとアベルの言われた。でも今日は昨日よりは全然ハッスルした。あの、あの厳しいカレルが、「今日は良くやった。今日見たいに明日もやれば大丈夫だ」って言って来たのは嬉しかったな。あの厳しいカレルだったし。まーでも、カレルとアベルちょっと違うのは確か。まーそりゃ現実的に十人十色である。まー今日見たいに明日もやれるよう頑張るだけである。

　　ってかラングハムのメンバーに今日も会った。相変わらず皆大変そうだった。まーほんとラングハムの良い人たちに今でも会えるのは嬉しいね。まー俺がホテルの前でタバコすっててもマジで俺はもう気にしなくていいからね。楽だ。

　　ほんと人生楽ありゃ苦もあるさ。

　　仕事はとっても順調！

　　金、土曜と初の週末働いたけど悪くない！。土曜日は金曜日よりもましだった。日々成長しております。まーでもまだ分からない事だらけだけど、一日、一日働いてくなかで覚えるだろう。キッチンの人たちは、、、、、ホテルよりはましだね。皆気合い入れてやってるし、、、、まーほんと妥協しないで職探ししてよかったな。
　
　　後２週間もすれば、、、、少しずつリッチっていうか、金に困らない生活が出来る！。マジで長い道のりだったな。でも今回、究極の貧乏生活をしてて思った事。「銀行の口座に＄１０しか入ってなかろうが、＄１０００あろうが、俺は俺である。金に依存することはないな。金は所詮金でしかない。」これはほんとにそう思うね。５つ星ホテルに泊まって、セレブ、ルクサリ−見たいな人生, おれは全く興味ないな。まーそんな事を昨日誰かさんと話してる時に思ったな。まー別に５つ星ホテルが悪いって言ってる訳じゃないけど、、、、、人生自分でどれだけやれるかじゃん。はい、親が車３台買ってくれました、はい、親がベルサーチに泊めてくれました。ダッセー！！　どっかの誰かさんたちより俺の方がよっぽど、熱く、濃い内容の人生を送ってるね。まー日々完全燃焼してる奴とそうでない奴らの違いさ。

　　さー今日は休みだから、、、、明日に備えて鋭気を養って明日また完全燃焼だい！

Track of the week : London Elektricity / Remember the Future! 'I remember the future-!!!"

Start new life from tomorrow. Well, its only about work but.......its a big change for me. I am very lookinforward to.....

Went to buy a chef jacket and did a bit of shopping today and went to lacamera for get menu. Andy told me that a guy came for trial today went home during a service.......what a jorke. Scear to work?......I am not. Always not......well thats because of when i start working in hotel and doing cold lader..........i didnt go to work everytime because i knew i will get into trouble and i did. First 3 month, everyday i work, there were some problems. Andy and Chnag always yelled to me....always......i wont forget about this forever....."How many times i have to tell you! Stop doing those stupid little mistakes......when u do those stupid mistakes, i get told off from chef too" thats what Andy told me once. Chang was always....."you fuckin......"..........Sudarshan was always nice. No Matter what i did wrong....he didnt yell to me.....what a nice guy.....

Anyway........i will be busy tomorrow night for sure.......its Friday night and its on Southgate.....so.......but I Can Do It!!! 200%Force!!!!

Well Well Well.....Long week end is over now and Glentuntly Rd is busy like usual now, too.

Went to Simon's house and cooked for him yesterday but Simon didnt tell Selinda about this so, thats only me and him.....was a bit gay....but anyway, he seems happy so thats good. Went to Tours with him.......One of them was so bad.......really bad.....i felt sick......

Anyway, i think i have to find out about job as soon as possible now. Well, if i cant get job @ Lacamera.......um....then i think i might ask Nowa and might go back there. As i metioned in blog the other day...."Tired to being Poor!!!!". I dont want to worry about money!!!! Well, have to see how i go tomorrow. I Can Do It!!!! I am on the Fire!!!!!!! No one can stop me!!!! However, its good to see that my soul isnt dead even when i dont have money. For some people, when they lose or dont have money.....their soul also die. Rich Monther Fuckers!!! Most Soul-less people in the world. I am happy that i am not like them!!! Hell Yeah!

With Music......I am more and more getting into Jazz now. Its good music.....I feel like i am getting old by start listening Jazz or i may should say i am growing up. I kind of like my self listening music. I think Jazz is music for Adult or old people. Not many young people listen jazz. Maybe its a bit too formal for them or......too complicated or i dont know.....but....its very very cool music. Chill Out, Relax.....Love Music!!!

"Tomorrow always come after the dark.".....Unconditional Love/2 Pac.

一昨日派手に遊んだから今日は何もしないレイジーデイ。水曜日にはトライアル、明日はサイモンの家まで出張シェフ。
　　特に、これと言って凄い何かを書きたい事がある訳でもないけど、、、、、、、、季節の変わり目、ここらでマジで気合い入れてやり直さないと駄目だ！。やるからにはやはりいつも完全燃焼で行かないとな！。燃えて、燃えて、燃えまくる！それしかない！。ちょっと落ち気味になってる今日だけど、ほんと気合い入れてやらないと！。

　"Tired to being Poor"....Changes/2Pac

携帯にメッセージがこの前まで見たいにがんがん入って来ないのにやっとなれて来たかな。さてと。後ろを振り向かないで、前だけみて進んで行かないとな！

　I Am Seiji!!! Here I am!!!
　

Now I can confidently say that " I know What is the Force?"

Yes! Saw Joris Voorn!!!! He played Awesome Set!!!!

Anyway, my good Friday start quietly. just keep listening Joris Voorn etc and Yeah, i have got another trial now! One on Southgate!!! but this is a Chef position. Not a Cook so it will be tough but I can do it!!!!!

Leave home around 2:00 and get there around 3:00. James Holden was already start playing. When we got there, we were absolutely Straight so i was checking James Holden more clearly and checking than when i am off head. However, he rocked me indeed!!!!!!!!!!! I felt that i was getting into his music. What a genius skinny, little guy. However, again we were absolutely straight so couldnt stay there for long time so me and Oliver went for walk to Crown and had a cafe and back to Venue again, and went for walk again etc.....and around 7:00, i luckly scored a stuff. After partying for 6years, its not hard to score stuffs because i know people.

and before Joris Voorn start, i went to outside for toilet.....however, when come back to gate, Security guys saying "No, no entry after 8:00 so cant come in".......I was like "What a fuck these guys are on about?" but i knew they are not going to let me in either i say any reasons so.........I called Simon for a big help. I came to this party for see my an idol who i have been waitting for 2 years and cant see him...how waste is that? At the end....Simon called Brad and he let me in.......Thanks god.....Simon was my hero yesterday. Without his help, i couldnt see Joris Voorn.

Now, finally i met my an idol. He started off with Club Wire and played so many of his own tracks. Well, i droped pill but i wasnt feeling anything so when he start playing i was still super straight but.....he almost made me cry. I love his music........"Force".....thats what his music is about to me. Also, he made my wish came true!!!! Yes, he played "Can You Feel the Force?"........what can i say? how can i say?......it was just full of "Force" Thats all i can say. He finished set very nicely and....i went to shake hand and i said to him "I felt the Force." and he was looks very happy too. What a great communicaition via music. Thats what its all about. "Communicaition". I Love Music. I will remeber about yesterday for forever......

さて！遂に俺のアイドルと今日対面です！。偉い長い事待ったよなー。約２年！。今日遂にフォースを感じる事が出来る！。まーブツの方がまだ手に入ってないけど。

　　昨日親にメールしたら「仕事はどうだ？」って思いっきり突っ込まれた。ちゃんと理由は説明しといたけど、、、、理解したかな？。ほんと、出す料理もくだらん、おる人間もくだらんような所でやるのなんて無理無理！

　　ラングハムのローリーが言った事は忘れないな。「常に前を向いて先に進め。後ろは振り返るな！」昨日ホテル出てから橋を歩ってる時一度ホテルを振り返ったけど、その直後にそのローリーに言われた事を思い出して、二回は振り返らなかった。ほんと、ローリーは「
ミスターホスピタリティー」だ。ホテルのキーをもう持ってないのが寂しかったりするけど、前だけを見て進んで行かないとね。常に前進あるのみ！

今日は何を思ったのか、日本語でブログを書く。まー何故今まで英語で書いていたかと言うと、ブログを始めたと当初は一般公開をする予定だったから英語で書いてたけど、、、、、このブログは完璧な非公開ブログになっているので、、、「日本語で良いだろう」

　さて、何人かの人に意見を聞いた結果、、、、「アンドリューに電話しよう」って事になって電話したら、、、、ゴルフ中で、「取り合えず明日来てくれ」って事になった。まさか「来て」って言っといて「採用しません」は、、、、ないよな？。ドキドキです。マジでこの超赤字生活から抜けださないと、、、女の子と遊びにも行けません。カーハットよ待っておれ！すぐ現金持って行ってやるわ！
　親からは苦情が出始めている事だし、、、、。

　ラングハムライフも後２日で本当に終了です。昨日もこれについては書いたからここでは書かないけど、色んな事があったな。ちょっぴり寂しい気もするけど、、、、、、、、、、、まー人生どんどん先に進まないとね。

　そう言えば今日、シェフノワに会った、、、、俺が仕事のオファーを断ったのにも関わらず、笑顔でお互い話せたのは良かったな。さすがはノワ！リスペクト！

　職探しの事でとってもマイナス思考になったりする事がある日々このごろだけど、自分の中でどんな事があってもポジティブに考えるようにしてる。アミシィが駄目でも、火曜日もう一件違うところで、トライアルをこぎ着けたから、どんな結果になっても素直に受け入れて、前進あるのみ！　

My Bank Account is absolutely empty now! Holy Shit!!!!

Well, at least i have got job interview today so which is good. Hope i can get job. I dont want to do this super broke life anymore!. Um........hope i can get it.

Be Side that, life is ok. Ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Broke!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but i am still alive and being normal Seiji!! Lets Do this Shit!

　　"Whole World is waitting for me to open a door" Thats what i feel after i resigned. This is great that i dont need to stress anymore with politics bullshits anymore! I will miss many people at hotel but will never miss that place!!!

Today was the day i did back to back. Well, when i heard this word " Back to Back" I thought its about DJ's Back to back but anyway, get up early, well, get an hour extra sleep because of Summer time finish today. Work was dam easy. I was expecting Crazy Busy because its Formula 1 Grandprix.....but its totally dead!!! so both Anthony and David wanted us to go home so i happily finished earlier. I dont really care anymore about that place and my time is more important than working at there so, yeah thats good i finished earlier.

Came home, continue down loading music. Um.....Down Load music is the deffnaly my hobby now. Well, i know its not good thing to do as hobby because we all should buy cds and support artists but.......we can get so much music by free so, we dont we use this technology? Down Load more of James Holden tracks and............This guy is a genius!! Very Looking Forward to see this guy! Plus...........of course my long time waited Hero Joris Voorn! This will be deffnaly an awesome party!