Maybe Today is an another Turning Point for me......

6:00 am, i got up....i was still so tired because i did double shifts yesterday, finished late and get up early. 7:00, start working......time was going fast. Today's lunch was ok, well, maybe i should say 'I Enjoyed". I did way better than yesterday....already start remebering menus.
1:30 finished and talked with Chef with what are we going to do as in work full time or not etc. Ended up today was the my last shift. Worked only 3 days.....this is my record now. However, thats the best way of resigning. It will never happen in Langham like that. Me and Chef were both happy with conclusion.....Win, Win Situation because as i said to chef, i dont want to work there while i know that i am not going to become chef but chefs are trying to train and teaching me. Thats is very disonesty to me. Chef was totally agreed with me. I said to him that i have something-else i want to do in my life etc.... and I wont forget what he said to me for forever. "I still sometimes feel that I dont want to do this job anymore and do something-else but to me its too late. However, u are still young and if u know what u want to do, stick with that, thats better for u."........He is the real Chef. I respect him a lot now. If this is some chefs in hotel.......they dont care about me.....they only care about them so if i say i will quit.....they wont care at all. I know they are head chef and excutive chef in 5 Star hotel, so everyone will be like "Wow....5 Star hotel head chef,.....thats great". but to me....like Nowa(Head Chef in that restaurant) is more respectful and passionite Chef than those 5 star dick heads. I know Nowa is just head chef of restaurant in small suburb compear with 5 star head chef.....but Nowa is 100 times better than those 5 star dick heads!!!! Respect!!!!

After talked with Nowa......i strongly feel that i need to follow what my hurt says. This is Rolly from Front House of Langham told me too. I know it will be hard to beome what i want to be....but.....now i think i have to do it. I strongly feels that i am learning and growing.